The picture that "Outlaw" posted is how I felt for many years as a witness. I felt my religion was like the "terminator" it never stopped. I felt the elders were like the Pharisees, they were often hypocrites and they liked the power they had. I had a discussion with my father whom had served as an elder for some years. He was critical of some elders who stood like vultures waiting to descend on a young brother who had marital problems, they wanted to disfellowship him rather than help him. One who had served as a presiding overseer stated such before they they had met to hear the problem. My discussion led to that my father as an elder had shown similar tendencies. Whereas Jesus washed the feet of the disciples and showed humility he went to those who were the tax collectors and the prostitutes.
Before I left the JW's I had the opportunity to read Ray Franz books but declined. I didn't want to be influenced by them in my decision. The 2nd one I read on Christian Freedom I really enjoyed and gradually started to see a freedom in Christ. I don't find Christianity restrictive. I find hope. I find a kindness in Christ. I find answers as best as I can find.
I believe in God. I cannot imagine anything coming from complete nothingness. There would be no place for anything to exist in. God seems the best solution to me. I have had supernatural trouble. I know how it started and I know how it finished. Maybe that's why I don't totally dismiss the witnesses.
"Theophilus of Antioch once put it like this in a debate with some disputants: "If you say, 'show me your God,' I should like to answer you, 'show me the man who is in you'...For God is percieved by men who are capable of seeing him, who have the eyes of their spirit open... Man's soul must be as pure as a shining mirror" (Ad Autolycum, 1, 2, 7ff) Jesus of Nazareth, 2007 Joseph Ratzinger Pope Benedict XVI.
If we had video footage of Christ would it make you a believer. The fact that God is seen by the heart, to me makes him more real. (Matt 5:8)